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loneliness

umglaublich which hopelessness I come against every day.
I can not even say that I am hurting but I feel cruel. I'm cold, it's dark, there is nothing that interests me and there is nothing left to do what I could. Although I in sweaters and gloves in my room with all the lights to sit, have the possibility to play, read, learn, or just what to do.
Instead, I'm a cigarette, put me in my bed and hear the music in me at least halfway RECALLING good times. My phone does not ring in Icq do I change my status anschreibt not even because I'm not eh. When people write to me, I have no desire to them. I feel lonely, I feel damn lonely. Actually, I still have contact with people but the größtteil them suffer, I can do and it makes the loneliness even more unbearable. I miss the school, these wonderful place! The whole day was one with his friends, the people who like together and had fun. Sina I miss, she had brought at least energy and variety in my life.
What happened to the world? Where has gone all the good go? Why am I so bad? Every day I sink more and more in the past for me vorzuheuscheln the times I was fine. I went for a good time with friends than maybe the move was when I was with Sina, I have taken in Peridon new foot and even when I was with Sandra. This year was soooo beautiful. I can not believe it's over. It was such a wonderful year, why is it over?! The year has started what
5 months ago is really shitty. Every day I do not know what to do. Attempts to destroy the time or cost any sleep with boring shit as long as possible in order to wengistens 5 minutes of this tragedy to strike dead. I am sick of this online might me puke at this kommunities. Everything suffocates in the worthlessness of this lichen weider
Insulvenz and I can not, purely to do nothing.
I will not rush into another relationship I have just started because I'm lonely. I just want to have a love, a true love as I otherwise for years actually I felt and I do not now meet in months. I hate this desolate world! I feel so lonely .... I would have even bothered to read a book for the university, out there in my swing but outside it is so dark in here I must turn on the light and cold, put me in my own room forces to gloves, I do not need to mention yes.

The only bright spot is in Bonn, where I can go to a disco in the bar. That would be a dream for me, even more than this inn. Then I can also find a Afford housing. I'm tired of sitting on the bus set EVERYDAY. If I convert the bus travel time is about as long as ne work.
On the other hand, I'm really afraid of it. to die in fear of an even deeper solitude.
What have I actually done wrong in my life? I will return to the last year ....